Wednesday, December 29, 2010
So You know how on that movie with Natalie portman, Anywhere but here? She is in California and she trys to find her dad and when she does the call is stale and doesn't really turn out how she had hoped? She has pictured him missing her and wanting to see her? I am starting to wonder if I find him if that's how it will be.
I found out about 2 weeks ago that the man who I thought was my Dad all 24 years of my life was indeed not my "Real" Dad. I had always wondered why I looked nothing like my 3 siblings or why I was 5'1 and the rest of the kids were well over six feet. I always joked about it but never thought it was true. Until the day she walked in and said she had something to tell me. I wasent mad, I was sad for him that he couldnt be a part of my life. All these years she asked me to find an old Boyfriend of hers. Said he looked just like Al from Home improvement. I blew it off thinking oh Boy moms old Fling. When she told me that he was my Dad I got a little dizzy.I still get Dizzy when I think of Him. My Siblings and Dad all knew and never felt I was ready to know. My Dad doesnt even know that I know. Its better that way.
Back in 1986 her and my Dad had split up and she worked with Birth Dad who I will call Al Borland. At a Hospital, She got pregnant with me and went back to my Dad, Its a long story I suppose. She said he might not want to meet me but I could try. My Sister said I look just like him. I think I want to see what he looks like more than I really want to meet him. I found him and hour away. Not Married No Kids. I sent him a letter he never picked it up from the Post office, Is he dead? Has he lost his mind? Did his house wash away with all this rain? I forsure don't want to think that he may have his own life and doesn't want anything to do with his Daughter......... I am here if you wanna find me.......